When the world was fast asleep, I used to take a walk along my memory lane with the tears on my cheeks. I was never good enough for you. I was constantly coming last to all the priorities you had in your life. I was totally consumed by negativity and for a while thought that life was impossible without you. Whenever I saw a light at the end of the dark tunnel, I thought it was you. It took me a while to realize that you were the darkness in my life.
I honestly want to go back to the day I met you and just walk away. You asked me what really was your fault. Before asking that, Have you ever thought about a girl who had made the spaces around her as a personal hell? Have you ever thought about a girl who had no appetite due to anxiety that ruled her? A girl who was constantly trying to figure out the mistakes in her efforts.
I want you to know that I don’t regret you. You left me to be engulfed in the darkness, but too many great things have come from that darkness. I am not giving you the credit for who I am today. You dragged me down so far that I was forced to push myself back up and make myself emotionally strong. If I didn’t know how it feels to be at the lowest point of my life, I would never realize how strong I am. I won’t beg for your time and attention anymore. You ignored me and I became used to being ignored. You stopped calling me and I stopped waiting for your calls. I stopped checking my phone all day for a single text. You lived away from me and now you have brought the best out from me, I can live without you.
You knew that I had lost myself in you. But, you never realized that I was not the one who would beg or plead you for your attention. There was a magnificent beauty in the pain I experienced. It has given me so much inspiration to move forward in my life. Every broken piece of my tiny heart is grateful that you showed me what I’m really made of and make me realize that I’m not the one who gives up.